one in the morning...

Yesterday was a much awaited important day to some..another day to others kinda day..09-09-09. So I didn't win the lottery nothing astronomical in proportion occurred...but i didn't break anything and I didn't hurt myself. Over all in my opinion it was an ordinary Wednesday. The idea of people obsessing over numbers is not uncommon to me. In fact obsessive compulsive disorder runs in my family, and as much as i try to deny it I am very much blood relative to my family.

Another idea in which I always try to avoid is the concept of nurture over nature. When a human being does something wrong, people look to the families to see what kind of upbringing said person had...were they bullied? Did their parents drink..was it a broken home? The idea of this to solely base ones sins on their childhood seems silly to me. I care not think of a more descriptive word for how i felt about the situation; because it was the first word to pop into my head and probably because I meant it when I said it. The thing is..unless you're mentally deranged or anti-social psychopath odds are everyone is capable of making sound judgements on what is deemed right and what is wrong.

History repeats itself and it is because we are too lazy to change our ways..sometimes its because that is all we know and other cases it is because we are afraid of the repercussions of trying to change ourselves. It has been said that in order to change the world we must first change ourselves, which is why i feel that even if a kid is brought up in an abusive home the child can learn that it was not their fault and they don't need to treat people or their own children in the same manner. In the opposite scenario, when being brought up in a "perfect" home and having a good education, good looks to match can just as easily commit the same heinous crimes. When one is taught that the world is theirs on a silver platter and people are below them it is no different.

I was watching tabloid shows with my sister the other and I mean no offence to anyone who reads this. Ryan jenkings was accussed of killing his ex wife jasmine, durring the man hunt before he claimed his own life, people could not stop talking about his good looks, his money, and his personality. The thing that gets to me is that people always expect en subs to be ugly or have disfigurements or speach inpediments...something wrong with them. Suddenly middle america is on its ass again from a true tradgedy and they can't get over themselves because there was seemingly nothing wrong with him. Maybe America did corrupt him, but there is no point in making him look like a victim. It is one thing to shoot a person dead, or poison their food, but to take the time to remove someones teeth...or their finger that takes a whole entirely subcategory of monster. Had Jenkings known that breast implants come with track numbers...he would have removed those too and that is something i'm wlling to be money on.(thanks america...now we'll be finding more womens bodies with mutilated breasts, just incase they had implants in there.)

Ted bundy, he was attractive, smart and had a future in politics and was also one of histories most prolific serial killers. He pleaded innocence up until he was certain to get electric chair, and he then tried to lengthen the trial by talking about his victims, showing the worl a glimpse of his true darkness.Son of Sam-David Berkowitz, yet another seemingly normal looking man,Andrew Cunanan, Even Charles Manson was a rather attractive and mesmerizing person. I wonder why it is that people are so obssesed with looks that they feel that attractive people never do anything wrong?

It's quite sad really because half of hollywood is where the looneys are anyways..and crazy people attract eachother. The pretty girls..."the plastics" these are the ones who break our hearts, who make us feel worthless, and ugly. They bruise are egos and diminish our self esteem because they know they can and they thrive off of it. So is it so surprising when an attractive man kills a woman?

I don't really have a point to this blog its two in the morning now..i just felt like talking and this is where it led me...
i think ill go to bed now..
t.t.f.n.